God never forgets his promises!!!

Hey everyone!!

As you all know, I have just come back to the States after having a glorious adventure in Costa Rica, where I did my School of Worship. I'm telling you, my life has CHANGED. I wouldn't even tell you that I might act a little differently, or I might say things that I wouldn't have said before. My whole thinking process, my speech, my heart, EVERYTHING has changed....for the better, of course. There I some things that I did before that when they come to my mind now, I have to push them away for the fear of vomiting. I was a huge mess. I had nothing going for me. I didn't know what I wanted. Heck, I didn't even know who I was!! I was just wandering, knowing that God loved me, but not doing anything about it! I had the perspective that nothing I did for God was good enough, so why try? I lived selfishly, thinking that when God wanted to, He would help me out of the messes I got myself into.

During my DTS [Discipleship Training School] in 2009, I learned a lot about who God is and who I am in Christ. I learned about the Bible and having intimacy with God. I learned how to live in community and share everything I had. I learned how to talk to to people and how to act with people who didn't know of the love of Jesus. But, to tell you the truth, I learned, but I didn't change. I took a lot of things into the mind, but hardly any of it went to my heart. It could have, but for some reason, I didn't allow it to.

So, a year and a half went by. I still did missions. I still talked to people about Jesus. I went to Haiti, then back to Panama for a while. But I was lost! I didn't know what God wanted. I didn't know what my next step was. But I knew that Panama wasn't the place for me. There's so much evil where I lived that I got suckered in a lot, whether it was alcohol, or boys, or smoking, everything affected me. So I guess here I could say, after my DTS, I was changed for the worse. I was doing it all well in my little bubble of YWAM [Youth With A Mission] but as soon as it popped, so did I.

So, going back to my DTS, I received a word about going to Chile. I also received a word, well, to be exact, 7 words, about doing the School of Worship. So my thinking was, "God wants me to go to Chile and do the School of Worship." But, alas, there was no School of Worship in Chile. However, there was one in Costa Rica, where I did my DTS! And so, I completed my SOW from January through the beginning of April [we weren't able to the outreach] and let me tell you, the SOW literally went from my mind to my heart in every way!! God worked inside of me so much. Apart from writing songs and making a journal and leading worship, my time with God increased and my attitude for life did a 180! I see people as valuable and not as things that we can just either blow off or run away from. Material objects don't have my focus anymore. If something breaks, it can be fixed. If something is stolen, then that person needed it more than I. I choose to forgive rather than be offended. Unforgiveness in your heart is one of the most dealiest spirits a person can have. It's like a huge load that you have to lug around with you everywhere and it gets tiring. I've learned to let go, and that I have!! My life is not mine, it belongs to the one who paid for it!! Jesus is the reason I live and I want the world to know the same love that He has shown me, He has for them too!!! Because people matter!!

So basically, sorry this is so long. If you didn't read the whole thing, i don't blame you, but know this. God loves you in every way, for who you are REALLY. You can't hide anything from God. He already knows. What is the biggest thing in your life that is keeping you from this truth?? Get it away from you!! Flee from it. God is more important and He loves you.

My next step, in case you are wondering, is to go to Pichimelu, Chile and staff the new School of Worship there. Remember when I got those words? Yep. It's happening the 26th of September. The School of Worship is finally being brought to Chile!! And I'm pretty excited about it!! Please join me in praying for this school and for the students and other staff participating. Lives are going to change. When you find the presence of God, you change. You can't be the same. So please keep this in your prayers, that God would be revealed in a thousand different ways to many people, because people matter. God tells us to GO. That's what I'm doing. And I would encourage you to do it as well :)

Also, I will be needing approx. $5,000. I am working at Chipotle, so I'm going to guess that I will earn maybe half of that, and I am looking for other jobs as well. But if you feel in your heart to help me go, please let me know. Please, please, please. The plane ticket alone is around $1,800.

Bless you all!! And thank you to those who have been keeping me in your mind and prayers!!! You are the ones who have helped me to change!! I owe you much, and I know that God is very pleased with you as well. He has a special reward for you, because he loves cheerful givers.

"And because of His great love we are not consumed, for His compassion never fails." ~Lamentations 3:22

Pura Vida Life.

Hey everyone!
So, I've been in Costa Rica for 6 weeks, which means I'm half way done with the lecture phase of my School of Worship!!! God has been teaching me tons in these weeks and has also been breaking my heart and healing it the way it should be. It's funny how you don't really realize how messed up you are until one day t just smacks you in the face and then you can't take it anymore. You have to change. I keep asking myself almost everyday, "Why did I commit that sin?" "Why do I act his way?" And it's always something along the lines of, "Oh, because I'm stupid. That's right." But that's not true at all!! I have found my identity again in Christ!! I'm beautiful and smart, I have learned to see myself and others in the eyes of God, rather than in the eyes of man.

So, every week we have a different teacher come in from some random part of the world, and every single teacher has taught on the same chapter in the Bible, John 4. It's the only chapter in the entire Bible where Jesus talks about worship. It talks about the Samaritan woman at the well and how her life was transformed after a few simple sentences with Jesus, and then how she went totally biserk and her whole village came to know this wonderful man. But her main question to Jesus was, "Hey, where am I supposed to worship? Because these guys over here say to go to this mountain, and then these other random guys say to go over here...I'm lost!" And Jesus simply says, "You are to worship in Spirit and in Truth." That's how we are called to worship! And let me tell you, worship is NOT when you walk in the door on a Sunday morning, half-asleep into the sanctuary and start singing. It's a response that you give to God for the things he has done in your life. Worship is a VERB not a NOUN. We worship! We don't HAVE worship! In the Old Testament- Hebrew the word "worship" is "shachah" which means to postrate oneself in homage or royalty to God. In the New Testament- Greek it is called "proskuneo" which means to turn and to kiss the cheek of, like a dog licking his master's hand; to prostrate; bow down. So as you can see, we shouldn't take worshipping as a light thing that we only do in church. If your heart isn't there, why are you speaking words of gratitude? What you feel in your heart should then go to your mind, and then you speak out words of TRUTH.

Anyways, it's an awesome story. You should look it up.

Every other week it is mandator that we write a song and present it in front of about 40 people. The leaders give us a verse or chapter in the Bible to write the song around and it's up to us to come up with lyrics and music for the song. Let me tell you, my guitar/singing/writing skills have improved so much!!! I LOVE to write songs for Jesus!!!

A few of my songs are up on facebook. Check them out.
I have also been working with the homeless and prostitutes every once in a while (usually Tuesday and Saturday nights). Please pray for them. Trafficking is a huge problem here.

And so, I would suppose that now is the time for those prayer requests:

• against the attack of the enemy. He has been putting these terrible thoughts into my mind and distracting me from class and such. He's so tricky. I have to take time at least 4 times a day to sit by myself and pray.
• finances are always a good thing to pray for. I have all of my school paid for now, but I need some money for random things like:

1. toiletries- shampoo, conditioner, deoderant, toothpaste, etc. probably an estimate of around $10 a month

2. internet - the internet here is not free. It costs about $20 a month.

3. Money for random things I may need - pencils, notebooks, strings for my guitar, food, clothes or something. An estimate of about $20 a month.

4. I need money for my bus ticket back to Panama at the end of March which is $35. (That includes the bus, the little bus, the boat, and whatever food.)

• my family, I miss and love them dearly. -sigh-

So yeah! Please keep my in your prayers if you haven't been already. If you would like to donate anything or send me a box of chocolates (I haven't had a reese cup in like a year), just email me or facebook me. You are all dolls in my book. God bless you and may he hear your prayers!!!

My email is rebeanna@gmail.com and my facebook is www.facebook.com/rebeanna

As of late...

"And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love." - 1 Corinthians 13:13


I have been here at the YWAM base in Panama City for 3 weeks now. I am working as an assistant teacher for kindergarten, second, third, and fourth grade at a school that YWAM Panama has founded. I love working with the kids and it's awesome practice as well because I want to be an ESL teacher someday, God willing. I have been here since October 2 and plan to leave at the end of the school year, December 10. My parents are on an outreach in Europe right now with our first DTS team of 11 students. They will also come back in December. I miss my family a lot. It seems like I'm alone, though I know I have God with me, as well as these wonderful people in YWAM Panama. I have not seen my brothers and sisters since February.

Anyways, after I return to Bocas del Toro in December, I will be there for about 3 weeks, and then I will go on to San Jose, Costa Rica for the School of Worship. I am so excited about what God will teach me there!!! My guitar playing has gotten better, though I only have about a year playing, and I have written some songs. I know I will grow so much there.

Lately I have been struggling with happiness. I know I have a joy unspeakable, but for some reason, it's been hidden. I can't figure out what to do in order to allow it to surface. I admit I should be spending more time with God. I pray as often as I can. I'm always around other Christians that lift me up. I go to church. I LOVE the Lord. It just feels like there's something missing. I feel weary almost, but I love what I do.
I don't know. I turned 20 on the October 20th, and I feel like I'm a million years old. Like my time is running out somehow. I can't explain it.

Anyways. I guess my prayer requests would be that you would pray that I could rest in the Lord and find my joy in Him again. Also that I would be more open and focused on what He has to say to me, that He would ready me for my School of Worship in January. And that I would have faith he can provide. I need $2,000 for the school.
PRAY FOR HAITI AS WELL. THEY HAVE A SICKNESS FROM BAD WATER.

Thank you to all that have been praying for me and supporting me at this time. I wouldn't be here if it weren't for you.
God bless you.
Reanna

"Give me this water so that I will not thirst and have to draw water..."

In my life I have heard many teachings about the Samaritan woman at the well in John 4:1-25. Every time I hear or read this story, I always seem to learn the same thing. God is love, the woman lived in sin, she was shamed, and Jesus brought her truth. But about a month ago I heard a man talking about it and it struck me in a different way. This story is about a woman who had had five husbands, and when she met Jesus she was currently living with another man that was not her husband. She had so much pain in her heart and so much desperation in her spirit that even if she didn’t want another man, she couldn’t have stopped herself from looking for one. She was obsessed, which lead towards rituals, or actions, which then lead her to fall into sin. After each time she fell, she would feel guilt, or shame, and then she would start the whole process over again, leading to a life of sin. The cycle would end with a big void in her heart, and when she met Jesus, that void was filled with a love bigger than she could imagine.

I used to be like this woman. As many of you know, my life went from bad to worse when I got was in a terrible relationship and then wound up pregnant at 17, even though, at the end of it all, a huge blessing came out of it. I was putting everything I had into guys and how they made me feel. I would start with one relationship, enjoy it while it lasted, break up, and then search for a new man, and another, and another. I was hurt and I didn’t have any room for Jesus in the life I was living.

The sad part of my story is that I didn’t realize what a horrifying cycle I was in until I screwed up. It wasn’t because God had convicted me or because I wasn’t in love. I knew in my heart that what I was doing was wrong, I knew God wanted better for me, I knew I needed to change, but I didn’t want to listen and leave the life I was used to. Life is so easy when we are comfortable. It’s so nice to be able to do things the way that we think is best, but in the end, it kicks you in the butt.

When I was in the States in 2009, I gave birth to a beautiful little blessing, who was then adopted within my family, and I got involved in a church and began to really seek what it was that God wanted for my life. I met new friends that prayed with me, my family was a huge help to me, and my church allowed me to grow and learn things I never totally understood before. I was called to do my DTS (Discipleship Training School) with Youth With A Mission in July, 2009. While I was there, God worked in my heart big time. I started surrendering myself to Him, and He began blessing me. I love to sing and I play some guitar, and while I was there I realized that I have a passion for worship. I was given the chance to do my School of Worship last January, 2010, but it ended up being postponed until this January, 2011. I have decided to take a step forward in faith and I believe God has much planned for me as I do my School of Worship in San Jose, Costa Rica (where I also did my DTS). During this time I will learn what true worship is, in spirit and in truth. I will learn to write my own songs to the Lord and improve my singing/guitar skills. But more than anything I will seek a deeper relationship with my Lord, Jesus Christ. I will be sharing my faith with many people with Costa Rica during ministry times and throughout my stay there was well.

Our deepest desire is to know God and to have a love greater than all the love on this earth, or at least it should be. And our response to the relationship we have with our Father is worship.

Please pray for me – that is what I need the most.

Financial support is also needed, the school cost is around $2,000.

Do as God leads you to do.

I would like to thank all of those who have helped me grow and learn in the past. God bless you for what you have done for me and for God’s kingdom, because He used your prayers and money through me in Costa Rica.

“Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth.” – John 4:23-24

Jesus Talks With A Samaritan Woman

When Jesus left Judea and went back into Galilee, he had to pass through Samaria; and he came to a city of Samaria called Sychar, near the piece of ground that Jacob gave his son Joseph. Now Jacob's well was there. Jesus, therefore, being wearied by the journey, sat down by the well. It was about noon and a woman of Samaria came to draw water. Jesus said to her, "Give me a drink." (For his disciples had gone away into the city to buy food.)

The Samaritan woman said to him, "How is it that you, a Jew, ask a drink of me who am a Samaritan?" for the Jews have nothing to do with Samaritans.

Jesus answered her, "If you knew the gift of God and who it is who says to you, 'Give me a drink,' you would have asked him and he would have given you living water."

The woman said to him, "Sir, you have nothing with which to draw and the well is deep; where then do you get that living water? Are you greater than our father Jacob who gave us the well and himself drank from it, together with his children and his cattle?"

Jesus answered her, "Whoever drinks of this water will thirst again; but whoever drinks of the water that I will give shall never thirst. The water that I give him will become in him a well of water springing up into eternal life."

The woman said to him, "Sir, give me this water, that I may not thirst again nor have to come here to draw."

Jesus said to her, "Go, call your husband, then come back here."

The woman answered, "I have no husband."

Jesus said to her, "You are right in saying, 'I have no husband,' for you have had five husbands, and he whom you now have is not your husband; in saying that, you spoke the truth."

The woman said to him, "Sir, I see that you are a prophet. Our fathers worshipped in this mountain; and you Jews say that Jerusalem is the place where men ought to worship."

Jesus said to her, "Woman, believe me, the time will come when you will worship the Father neither on this mountain nor at Jerusalem. The time is coming, yes, has already come, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth; for such worshipers the Father seeks. God is a spirit, and they who worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth."

The woman said to him, "I know that the Messiah (which means Christ) is coming. When he comes he will explain all things to us."

Jesus said to her, "I who am talking to you am he."

What Happened to Reanna??

Hey guys!! I know it´s been a while since I´ve written. A bunch of things have happened since the last time I wrote.

I moved to the main island of Bocas, Isla Colon, to work for money. I had four jobs and I lived on my own for about 5 months. I am moving towards the goal of going to college next year in Panama City, though I´m not sure which college I would like to go to. I want to be an English teacher.

For now though, I will be going to Costa Rica where I did my DTS for the 50th celebration of YWAM! I am really looking forward to seeing my old leaders and friends. It will be a great time of reunion and fellowship for sure.
After this I have decided to help with the DTS that will be in Bocas as well as Panama City. My parents are helping to lead it, and I will be helping them with the base.

That´s all I have time for right now, but I wanted to let all of you know that I am well, though I was sick a lot this past month, and that God has great things in store for my future. I´m sure of it!!!

He also has great things for you, if you let him!
Love you guys!!

Philippians 2

Thinking Ahead...

So, I have been thinking a lot lately about my life, and I have found that I really need to have some goals so that I can continue to move forward in life. I have never really had a job, except for the three months that I worked at Subway, so I'm not really sure what I'm good at. I've only really been in the mission field and working for God, which is good, but I really want to do something that I like to do while at the same time glorify God with it.

So as of now, these are the goals I would like to accomplish this year:

1. I am currently volunteering at 2 local schools close to my home here in Panama. I am teaching English from first to sixth grade. I enjoy it, but the kids are shy which makes it difficult at times. My goal here is to learn to teach in a way that the kids actually remember enough English so that it can help them to get jobs in the future. I want to teach them enough that can have small conversations with English speakers by the end of the year. It's going to take a LOT of work, but I know God is on my side and He will help me to teach them in way that they can understand.

2. We will be having our first DTS in July. The first month and a half will be held at the YWAM base in Panama City, while the last month and a half will be hosted here in Bocas del Toro, at my house :) I will be volunteering as DTS staff, which is new for me. I recently graduated from my DTS in San Jose, Costa Rica last November, and this new position is exciting for me. I will be working with the students, helping them along as their relationship with God grows. My goal here is to raise the money I need in order to become staff for this DTS.

3. After the DTS is done in November, I had the option of doing a School of Worship in Costa Rica in January. However, after much thought and prayer, I really feel lead to go to college and get a degree in teaching English as a second language. This way, after I get my degree I can go anywhere in the world and help young and old people learn English and they will be able to get better jobs. English is used world-wide and I have found here in Panama that people are more likely to be hired if they are bilingual. So my goal here would be to get everything I need in order to get accepted into a college here in Panama.

4. I would also like to learn more guitar. :)

These are my goals. I ask that you would please consider praying for me during these transitions for me as well as for my parents. They will be joining the staff for the new DTS as well.

Also, I really need to raise support during this time, so if you feel at all lead to help me out, please email me at rebeanna@gmail.com or you can message me on facebook!

:) Thanks. God bless you all!

New Stuff. :)

Hey all!
God be with you!

I just wanted to write and tell everyone what's up out here in Panama!
At the moment I am in Panama City with my parents. We are meeting with the Youth With A Mission base leaders here because we want to have a Discipleship Training School at our house in Bocas del Toro in July! Half of the first three months of lecture will be in Panama City, and the other half will be in Bocas del Toro. This is very exciting for us because we have never had a school at our base before! Having this school will get things moving along with our base. I will also be joining the DTS staff, meaning I will be helping with the students as they work through the school. I've never done this, and I am very excited for it.

I am also volunteering at 2 schools and both sides of my house. I am teaching English to the students everyday, 3 days at one school, 2 days at the other. I am really looking into being a teacher in the future, so this is going to be great practice for me. I am praying that God can use me to show love to these children. I will be teaching grades 1-6. It is a year-long commitment so I will keep at it until school lets out in December, and then I am hoping to go to college to get a teaching degree. However, I still want to do the School of Worship in Costa Rica that has been postponed twice this year. I am playing guitar as much as possible, I believe it keeps me sane haha. I play for church services at times and just when I want to be with God. But I want to grow in worship as well.

Please pray for direction as I look for opportunities to serve and be a part of our lovely community. I want to build more relationships with the Indigenous people on our island.
Also pray for the relationship between me and my parents, as we are always together, and sometimes stress builds because it's hard to get away.
I also need to raise more support during this time to pay for staff fees and to buy a canoe to go to and from the schools everyday. At the moment I am borrowing my neighbor's 15-foot canoe, and it's a little hard to row because it's so big.
Please pray about partnering with me during this new season of changes in my life. I believe God is going to do something huge in our area.
Thanks everyone!
Please let me know how you're all doing!
Love you guys!
Reanna Kapsar